From The Journal of Jacob Cayle

Date: Today Is A Good Day To Diet.

I'd say that I really hate gnomes, but that would be racist, and I've gotten beyond that. The truth is, I really hate one specific gnome. He also happens to be an illusionist, and while I could hate all illusionists, I don't, because that would be similar to being racist, except with respect to a specific class. Would that make me a "classist"? Hmm, I'll have to ponder that for a while.

Anyway, the point is, I really hate that Gnome Illusionist. The one who made fools of us, and then after we sent him to prison he made fools of us again, got us thrown in jail for a night, and helped "liberate" us of a very powerful staff. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice...

I guess what I'm saying is we can't fully blame the gnome illusionist, we also have to blame ourselves. Although I'd note the paladins didn't exactly have much of a choice. They have to obey the law. I'm not sure what else they could have done but give all their weapons (and the staff) to the guards when they were arrested. I blame myself. As one of the few who doesn't have to absolutely follow the law, I may have been one of the only ones who could have taken that staff and made off with it until the others were able to get out of there.

Not that they would have trusted me to do so. Probably would have just ended up with them all coming after me trying to kill me. And let's not get into how Pelor would no-doubt punish me by blinding me or something for breaking the law, even if it was for the greater good. Makes me wonder why I spend time with a bunch of people who'd sooner kill me than trust me. I'll admit, I've made mistakes, but that's what they were, mistakes. I'm not actively trying to be harmful or malicious. Perhaps I can do more good for the world on my own.